Unpredictable, my college life, because this brother and full of sweet and bitter.
want to come during the days when the first true freshman is a very lonely, so I was so eager to have a brother tolerate, care for me.
dimension is my first brother, the original understanding, he is very shy, very quiet, was joking around will be very shy smile, so it seems inappropriate to describe a boy, but he gave me The feeling is so. He says in the message, significant scatter, happy birthday, ah, ah how do you ever?
11 in mid and late 2008, it is by accident looking for you to help a little busy for you, then it seems very bizarre to actually recognize you do to my brother, brother! This is the kind of people, ah! I remember with the peacekeeping know you always smiling when opening our jokes, let me know what to do. Know you really only found on the surface so you do not like hip-hop. You're clever, you are talkative, you sense of humor, you tough, you have principles, you will be lively, when its capability to ridicule, but in all seriousness when necessary reason for me, no exaggeration, I Really had me at that time to leng leng, and unreservedly accept that all truth.
impressed and I have been adhered to is that you taught me strength, patience and endurance. Had just completed a computer skills to participate in competition, I'm not familiar with computer fiasco out, a classroom,UGG boots, I can do it, finish the first sentence to uncontrollable crying, I began to tease you with a smile, and later a change is very serious tone and said: accompany you cry. But I do not think that such a little thing there is nothing to cry, be strong. Later time in the cafeteria talking about the girlfriend issue, you say your view is bad.
long, long time later, roommate suddenly asked me, br>
you never think that girls are born to take care of the boys,Discount UGG boots, so you are very strict to me, sometimes even harsh. QQ I will send a message with your saying that full of all the world that you, as long as you're around, I can laugh, I from the heart happy.
I clearly saw his fall into the trap, but also clearly understand that we have not possible.
one day to find your roommate because the mind talk, you tell her that her obsession with her brother is a freak, once recognized as brother and sister, then from a moral point of view, there can be no feelings other than brother and sister you take me with you an example, you say I told you it is not possible. So I know your first principle. In addition, from selfish motives, I feel good enough for you. Although the roommate joked many times you too skinny, smoking, drinking and consequently dry, I feel very sick, that the spirit are not. At first I just smiled, then it can not help but argue, >
fall into the trap, and it does not matter, I told myself, as long as you stay around, watching you, I'll be satisfied with you emotions.
roommate but I did not think those words will tell you, that make you doubt my words, >
still remember the March 5, 2009 Thursday evening, you find me to talk about the QQ said, I did not think that night has become a nightmare so far are not willing to remember!
you ask me if you're outside in addition to the feelings of siblings, and hard to just let me answer do not hesitate to play the last Questioned did not think you then why not contact with the dimension, let me explain, . How to explain? Do let me say that I am full of blows are you? I remember trembling panic to go round one after another lie, just a few hours for me as much as cut in pieces. Off the QQ, is covered with cold sweat. What we have said, back in time to make the system was cleared, but I can not forget those who like the pain of the knife to the heart bar, I'm sorry I'm not vengeful.
Friday to Sunday after three days, losing contact with you, my first experience of what is called the moment of collapse of the entire world. Life continues, my roommates are still happy to joke a day, they said something, what jokes I flatly do not know, just know I want to stop and look at it in front of microeconomics textbooks all day long all day long trance. Want to cry, want to find a place to find someone cry, but found no dry eyes to tear, so I know the limits of what is sad that tears are not Cry; so I no longer play school Happy Farm, that you recommend I play this game, you'll never play with a; so I opened a Sina blog, like private space, recording bitter mood.
Monday noon, my mother called to say her colleagues ran away from home, probably to the sea, so I went to the train station to help find someone, my first thought of you. Mom said that if the opinions do not want to go too far, and I insisted on going. I leave with you pull, I want to know you are not really ignore me, you better performance in the afternoon as usual, I was so very happy, again and again to pray, do not give up, do not give up. I'm sorry to pull you out with me foolish.
begin as a freshman, hidden in an unspeakable thoughts, alone to bear, not talk, has been through freshman, sophomore, until the third year, is not how I really strong, but I do not allow any point of uncertainty to affect our relationship, I'm afraid, as long as you hear and feel the anomaly at any point, you will alienate me, and this, I can not bear. In addition, a like, it may become your burden, I do not want this, so no matter how you ask me who is not fancy, and I do not say, is not to ingratiate themselves with the want to tell you that I can not.
2010 年 10 月 6 am, we talked a lot on the QQ, and you say directly back to a message, sentence Well, Well, I'll continue to tight-lipped about the feelings, and then deny the existence of land back, to exceptionally fast, feeling hot, totally forgot to cry.
you asked me why I do not refuse to give you a kiss,UGGs, because that person is you, ah! I do not luxury, if still on your side, I'll be content. I really clearly plainly what he was doing, the University, I do not want other people to get involved with your memory, no one to get involved. I will not guarantee that he would not like the others, but in this piece have your sky, so secretly I will always love you. Do not worry we will not even brother and sister are impossible to do, because two years I have carried over, and then, like me, can carry over, I promise, everything will be fine.
get your commitment, normally not do, I am here to vent, I want to say out loud the first time - like you!
like you to unreservedly accept your everything. You know, you are almost perfect in my mind, I remember secretly said to myself many times, Elohim is the goddess of your heart, and you, the God of my heart. Your foul trouble, and your bad temper, even if I wronged, I accept, because it is you.
like you, if you say You know, those who have left your summer vacation, you said I almost do not contact you, in fact, I would like to wish you hear around to see everything would tell you, at any time to think of you, but I just can not call you, you have your life, I'm afraid I will bother you, but also fear that they will reveal too much time.
like you used QQ hanging late into the night, waiting for you just to talk a few words, when not busy.
like you, used your breath, any heterosexual counterparts will feel uneasy, uncomfortable, and not as good as you!
like you, so that the first cry after cry is because of you. It was on the train, your message makes me frustrated, I told myself not to cry because of feelings of shame, so indulge with impunity in the sleeper compartment tears. And after the tears almost every time because of you. Every time I think your phrase will not give you the opportunity to accompany me.
like you, patience is very hard. Mr Yu has the first class watched a video presentation, himself did not lose anything.
like you, every shopping even not buy anything, just press back and forth to the road I feel very sweet, in fact, able to listen to you talk to very good.
like you, so you can imagine how much I was under the courage of your mouth into your first love. You say she is, is the kind of college experience may be hard to miss the girls, my fingers on the keyboard repeatedly groping back to you I know you consider my feelings, my heart thank you, so I told myself not to be your obstacles. If you find the right, I will not stop you.
like you, so you do not know how much I envy you your assessment that a Yes, I was in your eyes strange temper, capricious, irritable. The reason why my blog will reprint these articles because each article, I have seen his shadow, I can be happy because of your long word, a word which can be instantaneous because of the haze, I'm really not purpose, is unable to control his temper at once to let you figure this out, so you do not want to talk to me even, is not an excuse to say, then it is all because I really really like you, you understand that?
still remember you, SMS play a trick on me once you said you six door, give me a surprise, even if not seen the surprise, I was surprised to even have time to wear shoes Good to ran outside the gate, but not scheduled to see you, you will soon send a second message over and read my heart filled with a great loss, not control the phone the first time I shouted so loud to you. In fact this simply harmless joke between friends open open also normal, and I really regret it later, do not know how to explain to you, so start did not dare to take your call. Sorry, the name of love, you understand that?
you always said I'm not naive, and doing a good job where I really want to work to change. You often wonder why I care so much about your evaluation of me, because I like you, ah!
like you, in fact, there are very tired very tired, but I can do. How many times late at night, when sleeping roommate, a man cry in front of the computer screen suppressed. Even once, cried uncontrollably in bed all night, all morning roommate asked me whether I am crying, I can not admit, just smiled and said you got it wrong. I have no position to blame you what my feelings would have is that you do not need, the road is my own choice, then they would have to bear all costs, so I do not complain. Brother, your values really deeply affected me, so my friend told me I would imagine that if one day I had an accident, forget you, is not it can not continue like you? But I also understand that if the memory of these years all of you to dig up abruptly, my university, hardly anything left, because you are too important to be friends, loved ones, it is my favorite person!
like you, this thought might not hide, I was not a good person to hide emotions. In fact,cheap UGG boots, even the whole world to know I do not care, as long as you have not noticed, or pretended not to know, I would hide in their own world to like you.
alienate I do not try to make me forget you, do not say anything better than short-term pain long pain, the University has such a beautiful memory is not a bad thing, not even a dream opportunity not to me. I fool the entire world, only to keep this corner of the comprehensive.
I subvert the whole sky, just to straighten your reflection.
Lithuanian Pavilion at the Expo I remember when the museum is designed into a hot air balloon, I saw a beautiful legend.
, it is very effective. This is the Lithuanian people for the Shanghai World Expo will send the gift. word.
The more beautiful.
high school do not know what is like, like a person does not know how much effort should be exhausted, as you say - First love. You, is my real first love it, hehe.
wrote here, really ran out of strength, all in the past have turned into a miss.
miss you, love you!
2010 年 10 月 7 日
20:00
handwritten in a quiet study room
Today is October 10, 2010, I 20 years old.
you go with me KTV. The first time in KTV so quiet atmosphere, so quiet the first time I sing, sing for you, but also small to secretly pleased about, your songs, only one person for me to sing.
that moment, I did not think all of a sudden out of control emotions, I'm gonna cry out, may be suppressed for too long too long. For your love, I finally said, all say out. The burden of two years back in time get to vent, do not wish to burden you bear.
first kiss at 20 years old.
last kiss, do not know why, I feel the taste of despair, so I ran out of strength.
this day, I am very happy very happy. In fact, there are still vaguely worried mind, do not know the fun, is not an advance on future happiness!
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